Why am I here???

Hello Everyone!

I am here because since I was a child I have struggled with severe depression. I lived with a mother that had similar issues and was really moody, you never knew what was gonna happen next. She was very hard on me and my brother, she could really cut you to the bone with a few words. We grew up thinking we were horrible kids and that we made her life miserable. It really wasn’t us at all, there were several factors to her being out of control. Bad relationships (one after another), working several jobs at one time, taking care of both me and my brother, a husband and his two kids. Managing a home with large animals, example  Horses, Cows, Goats, you name it we had it, but I think most of all it was the abuse she suffered as a child and her depression.

I am hoping that my summary of my life is helpful to others who may be suffering the same type of life and the same type of illness. In my 30′s I was diagnosed Bipolar 2! Yes I said in my thirties but it all began many many years earlier. As far back as I can remember I was depressed, didn’t know why I was here and living. It was after I had my first child I knew something was wrong this behavior wasn’t who I really was inside. I was not going to do to my children what my mother did to me… so off I went looking for help from my doctor…